October 16, 2009 - 9:07 p.m.
who you become is who you have arrived to be
this moment defines for a millisecond who you are until this point and who you will be has yet to be determined.
there was a defining dream in Peru (wrote about it before but will embellish this time) it was bright white and there were beings the most adorable full of love furry amoebic abstracts, i felt sadness and compassion for their desperate cuteness, i understood. Then it was me and my amazonian shaman at competitions, golf, egg hunt, kickball, and finally a polar bear race with actual polar bears- all of the games ended the same I won Diego raised my hand and people cheered. I awoke and felt a gut wrenching pain engulfed in a fright i have never felt- was it because i was alone? in the amazon? that big bug on my misquito net? no this moment i realized i feared the potential of myself more than anything.
