October 01, 2009 - 9:28 p.m.
I have a new roommate not one that is paying rent but a new resident per se, a woolly bear caterpillar in the kitchen, name yet to be determined ... pillary? catty? presently residing on the mint plant in the window, not sure where I am moving him exactly... ahh as is this life of the bug lady, visitors visit me - i am going to try to take care of him and see if i can see the whole crysalis thing happen.
tonight had a fun nite with the acting folk -c's girlfriend was bartending for her b-day at this cool place that looked like a cabin in chelsea- beforehand caught up with j for dinner goodburger is good! when at the bar D was there and met a few new people- we have a good bunch in class and everyone seems to be getting along quite well - there was dancing and that is always good. am looking forward to sunday
wednesday made it for the second week in a row to drink and draw at third ward- it has been great to draw again- people are really good - l is incredible and w was great as well- a came this week and did a great job- i just feel like my stuff looks goofy as hell- ehh such is how i feel as myself at times- weakness
went to mini fv camp reunion last weekend - i took the bus to r's house in west caldwell then we drove to b.b.'s house in butler - butler lives in butler ha ha - he drove us to new world- had yummy my face kind of melted off dinner with l- she went on her way she wasn't coming to camp cause she was setting up a bike ride- so r, b & i then headed to camp and awaited us was b and her son a bunch of people from the past, bonfire and amazing scenic unending stars in the sky- was a good time everybody has kids a few of us are single but the masses are not- went on a nice hike and got lots of talking out
NANOWRIMO is coming up!!
I have a new idea for a novel- would be sort of a love/heartbreak story, 21st century female seer, bug lady, her big zit turns into an actual third eye.
each chapter would begin with prose and illustration?
ehh i will work it out- have been going back into the galaxies and some of the circuit cities have been using glue and piles of pigment so far i just have blue but i forsee a trip to the art store for more pigment
keep thinking i am making progress away from this feeling
of wanting a lost embrace
my heart is such a stubborn thing
conversating with my lucid mind
that won't let the final thin strings detach
the best thing to embrace seems to be the antithesis of attachment being impermanence
let go
let go
let go
it hurts
let go
let go
let go
