June 03, 2009 - 1:28 a.m.
had an overall ok day went to church avenue and caught up with r to go over the business he had been away for a few weeks in central america surfing. he likes the new business idea and was very happy about the already existing website. Feels like i am backsliding but maybe i am further along then i thought- got stuck in the rain then caught up with a we were suppose to go for a walk but since it was raining we met with l for happy hour, i am on the cleanse so didn't drink but did cheat and had a few puffs-- was a nice time and i pretty much feel somewhat like i am drinking too even though i am not intaking the alcohol- going to try for 8 or so more days - been researching some more this time on fasting and they have found in animals if you cut out food for a while they will actually live twice as long. Not that humans are animals but they kind of are- anyway for me i don't have healthcare so I am needing to feel better and i find the master cleanse helps me.
lost love is a an energy suck
i need not to think about it anymore
tonight found myself on the street just asking a to make me feel better, it isn't up to him
i just have to catch up on the let go and i am thankful we are friends i just don't know how to stop caring
bleh time to get myself together- clean, purge, cleanse and work.
and sleep soon
