May 06, 2009 - 12:08 p.m.
Lately my patience is waning in regards to being out of work- ahh it will be a year anniversary in June that I got let go ahhh a whole year without stable work ahhh!!! what the hell am i doing?? am having a bit of a breakdown these days been having some moments of sheer panic where i literally have to say to my self "it will be ok", "it will be ok". I keep thinking I am all good about a- cause I think it is necessary for it to be how it is now, being a couple didn't work, but i am really really sad and it doesn't feel right to not be with him, i don't want to leave the house so I have been writing and create- this "break-up" or whatever has done wonders for my productivity in starting new projects - whatever is going on something is transforming but it isn't very comfortable. bleh i'd just like the weather to change i think it could help my brain.
