February 09, 2010 - 1:14 p.m.
had a dream i was a huge fat man who had a realization he had enough money and decided that moment he would find love.. then i woke up a little hungry for food, love or something. A snow storm is apparently coming- and I have heard the grocery stores are doing quite well- I wonder if we get enough snow if the restaurants close- I kind of doubt it unless there is just no mobility. Can that happen? I don't know. I am sure I can survive either way.
Maybe there can be sledding.
Class went well in comparison to last weeks wreckage D gave me props and after class we texted he told me i should feel great and I did really well- instead i shared too much vulnerability- he called me olive oyl after the scene and S called me Lucille Ball and in retrospect I should be appreciative of being a type and Shelly Duvall kind of kicks ass if that is who d meant- I guess I never wanted to be so damn goofy, quirky that has always been who i am- d says the thing i need to see is that it went well because i was effective as myself acting as someone who appears weak to do something strong - then i have to think do i appear weak? yes yea i do
am I - not especially
